Damn Girl - You do You

 If I needed an excuse to talk myself out of doing this........I had plenty of them today.   Was basically nauseous all day, popped Rolaids constantly, packed and tried to be prepared for the warmer weather that is predicted and realize I have few summerish clothes, my knee felt like it was going out again, tried to facetime with the kids to say "goodbye" and those calls were a bit odd.  (Poor Connor has a broken collarbone, Kellan was gone and Skylar was busy but I did get to see her toothless smile.  At the TC Johnston's it was just Elise and I had even asked if I could talk to the parents, but no luck  However I did learn how to use emogis while I am facetiming.)    

Obviously my going on the trip is a bigger deal to me.  While I was hoping for a grand send off, I got a "keep in touch".  And yes, this fits with my "I'm still standing" mode.  I  am moving on.........

My notes to my friends telling them I was doing this was met with much more enthusiasm.  Encouraging, wishes for a good time, cant wait to hear about it, etc.  Funny how we - no ME - put too much thought into what my kids are thinking and really I should put my focus on friends.  

I still have to pack makeup and hair stuff........and part of me says just go "au natural".  But I personally feel better with some mascara and lipstick.  

I have tried to make an agenda, and everytime I do I just get overwhelmed or bored.  Not sure what it is, but I just shut down.  So, I am going to hit the road....drive in a direction that will eventually take me to the states on the bucket list......and try enjoying the moment, the miles, the music, the magic of being on the trip  Damn girl........you do you.  


I'm Still Standing Lyrics

Elton John
Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind
I'm still standing (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'm still standing (Yeah, yeah, yeah)

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Every Day is a New Story

 Here I am in St. Louis watching basketball after having a good dinner and staying at the Drury Hotel.  Life is good.  Really....Life is good. My day started finding the Grand Rover Falls in Joplin.  I have to say it was a great experience.  The damn that created the falls was in an area that was like the rock walls you see along the highway.  I sat down on a ledge and just relaxed and listened to the water sounds.  In some ways I wished I had a pillow so I could just lay on my side and spend hours there.  I used my "peace" oil this morning and I really did feel I was at peace.   From there I headed to Springfield, Missouri.  It was on the way home and I had no idea what there was to do.  Luckily I saw on some website that there was a Japanese garden, and remembering how much I enjoyed the one in Oregon, it became my destination.  And yes.......it was a worthwhile destination.  It is part of the Springfield Botanic Ga...
Read more

Where are you From Game

 As a kid we always looked for license plates on our road trips and I think I encouraged my kids to do the same.  So of course, I did my tracking.   First of all, why doesn't every state have a single look anymore? Why do so many people have the vanity plates that spell a name, or some cute thing? On the road I saw all but 12 of the states.  I did not see:   Alaska, Connecticut, Delaware, Hawaii, Idaho, Montana, North Dakota, Rhode Island, South Dakota, Utah, Vermont and West Virginia. New Mexico has beautiful plates, in Oklahoma there are plates for each tribe, the Ohio, Illinois, and Indiana basic plates are easy to recognize as they pass you.   Anyway it was a fun exercise.........
Read more

Overthinking or UnderFeeling

 Another day of taking it slow.  While driving I was 1-2 mph under or over the speed limit.  There really was not that much to see, but the beautiful earth.  I was able to enjoy the moment I crossed into Kentucky and then the moment i crossed into Tennessee.  Not sure why those were just a moment.  :-)  I had packed some peanut butter singles, carrots and celery and had that for the second day in a row.  Not sure why I just don't stop and get some food in a restaurant.   Decided on the way down that I was just going to stay downtown Nashville.  While I have visited it in the past at the CMA Festival, we did not hang out on lower Broadway or do the museums.  I decided I should and the cost of the hotel should not be the factor.  Had I thought more about it, I should have stayed a bit our of town and ubered in.....Oh well. I did enjoy the Museum and learned about Johnny Cash that I did not know.  I remember as a kid tha...
Read more